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All I really need to know I learned in HSM3

Posted by Kaye | Posted on 27-10-2008

Category : family, life outside work, Motherhood and parenting

Last Saturday, Bong, Kara and I watched the 3rd and final installment to the HSM saga. I was excited to watch this because I knew it was one of Kara’s faves (I even bought all the HSM books I could find in Powerbooks.)

I couldn’t help but marvel at the genius that is Kenny Ortega. Imagine choreographing/directing all those wonderful production numbers. I particularly liked that scene where Troy and Chad went back to being kids in that auto salvage yard. The dance moves were difficult (hey! I am not a dancer!) but well, all the other musical numbers were superb, so I guess all would qualify as difficult, huh. I just hated Vanessa Hudgen’s voice. I mean, couldn’t they do anything at all with that? I’m sure their ears must have bled to death while they were recording, considering how shrill and irritating it is.

But as irritating as Vanessa’s voice was, I couldn’t help but feel as if I have lost something after watching the movie. I’m sure some of you would agree with me when I say that HSM kinda grows on you. And so I really felt sad knowing it is the last of the High School Musical movies Disney is going to make. (At least Kara and I feel the same. Heehee)

But yeah, I couldn’t help but reminisce about those years when not knowing about what degree to take in college was one’s biggest problem (I was in a dilemma whether to take up Mass Comm, or HRM, or Architecture since I believed I would be able to hurdle those math problems), or what to do with the one you “love” who will be miles away from you, or even what dress to wear for the prom. If only I knew that whatever degree I would take in college wouldn’t matter much with the job I am holding right now, or that high school romance is nothing compared to the one I would experience years later with the man I would marry, or even that whatever prom dress I would wear would be incomparable to the joys of wearing a maternity dress knowing that a little miracle lives inside you, then I wouldn’t have worried at all.

But when you are at that stage where all there is, is high school and the fact that you would have to face your biggest fears otherwise known as college, independence and maturity, then you really have a reason to panic. But as long as you have your family and friends on your side, and your faith that the One above will tide you over all of life’s difficulties, then you will get by. Believe me, I did.

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PRICELESS

Posted by Kaye | Posted on 18-10-2008

Category : family, life outside work, Motherhood and parenting

Tags: Cassie, Jeremy, Kara

Kara and her crush, Jed Madela

This afternoon, after bringing the babies to the doctor (jeremy to have his 6-in-1 booster shot) and cassie for another check-up, we went to SM to do some shopping, and since there were so many people, we #went to nearby Robinson’s to eat at KFC (my sister anne loves chicken so much, she now has wings!)

While there, we found out Jed Madela was going to have a show. While we were eating, we heard the show start, and in a few minutes, Jed was already belting one of his songs. Kara told me she had a crush on Jed and that she wanted to watch. I asked her if she wanted us to buy his album so she could have it autographed. She was smiling from ear to ear upon hearing my question.

She couldn’t wait to finish her food so she could go and watch Jed at the activity area. Later, anne, Jeremy and I followed her and Ate Michelle who was holding Cassie and who also went ahead so she could watch. When I saw they were ok, I went to the table where Jed’s CDs were displayed for sale. The cheapest was i think his first album, selling for P150. Another was priced at P280 (this one, a repackaged CD), the third, at P300 which is his current album and the fourth, a combination of his first and second albums which cost P500. I wanted to give Kara both his albums so i bought the last.

After buying this, I went to kara and gave her the CDs. I could see how happy she was, she was smiling from ear to ear, and even told me Thank you twice. I was already happy just to see her smile at me.

I remember a few years back, when Sarah Geronimo did a mall tour at SM Sta. Rosa. We were there, but it was not intentional. Anyway, I asked Kara if she wanted to buy the CD and she said no. We went home after that. Later that night, I found out she actually wanted to buy the CD so she could have her photo taken with Sarah and have her autograph, too. I didn’t know it would frustrate her so I vowed to myself that the next time we get the chance to see an artist she really likes, I would buy that artist’s albums so she could have her autograph and photo taken with that artist, too. This afternoon, that was exactly what she got.

It’s not in Kara’s nature to insist on having something unless she’s well aware it’s also one of our top priorities. So naturally, she never told me she wanted a CD of Jed. But I could not pass up the opportunity. And i proved myself right because when she got the CDs, happiness was written all over her face. I was so touched that I fought tears of happiness, too. My baby’s joy is my joy, after all.

KFC merienda: P500+

Jed Madela’s albums: P500

Kara’s gratitude and happiness: PRICELESS.

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Mamma Mia

Posted by Kaye | Posted on 18-10-2008

Category : Motherhood and parenting

Tags: Kara, motherhood

Last Saturday, Bong and I were finally able to watch Mamma Mia on DVD, and what can I say? Either I just love musicales, or the movie is really nice because i loved it. Meryl Streep delivered a really nice performance, and well, I just could relate to the fact that letting go of your dear daughter who is getting married the next day is really very hard. Not that any of my daughters is getting married. One is just a four-month baby and the other, well, an 11-year old pretty young lady, but is still my baby. period.

when Meryll streep a.k.a. Donna started singing “Slipping through my fingers”, i couldn’t stop myself from shedding tears. I even had to hide my eyes from Bong lest he see me crying because of a movie. heehee. But the words really struck me, and the scenes accompanying the song made it even worse. In it, Donna was singing while Sophie her daughter gets ready for the wedding. After showering and while brushing her teeth, Sophie emerges from the bathroom and shows her mom Donna her bruised leg, whereupon donna immediately gathers her and puts something on her daughter’s bruised leg, and then kisses it. aaaawww… that’s just what mothers do to their kids’ bruises.

My friend and officemate Mitch already told me this particular song would really strike me. That was really touching, and I imagined my darling Kara. I told myself it really is very hard to let go. Even when Kara is already an 11-year old young lady who is even so much taller than me, I still think of her as if she were my 2-year old baby who I once brought to my office when we were still in Makati, and who i carried from the office to the bus station. I was instantly reminded of the times when I would just cuddle her on bed and give her millions of kisses and hugs, or the times when I would read her countless fairy tales and other stories, or the times when she would draw stick figures representing me holding her hand with the words I love you mama written beside the images…

For a mom, letting go is the hardest part. And I know, even if Kara gets married, she will still be my baby. I just wish she wouldn’t slip through my fingers yet…

Slipping Through My Fingers

Schoolbag in hand, she leaves home in the early morning
Waving goodbye with an absent-minded smile
I watch her go with a surge of that well-known sadness
And I have to sit down for a while
The feeling that Im losing her forever
And without really entering her world
Im glad whenever I can share her laughter
That funny little girl

Slipping through my fingers all the time
I try to capture every minute
The feeling in it
Slipping through my fingers all the time
Do I really see whats in her mind
Each time I think Im close to knowing
She keeps on growing
Slipping through my fingers all the time

Sleep in our eyes, her and me at the breakfast table
Barely awake, I let precious time go by
Then when shes gone theres that odd melancholy feeling
And a sense of guilt I cant deny
What happened to the wonderful adventures
The places I had planned for us to go
(slipping through my fingers all the time)
Well, some of that we did but most we didnt
And why I just dont know

Sometimes I wish that I could freeze the picture
And save it from the funny tricks of time
Slipping through my fingers…

Slipping through my fingers all the time

Schoolbag in hand she leaves home in the early morning
Waving goodbye with an absent-minded smile…

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Breaking up with an Ate

Posted by Kaye | Posted on 02-10-2008

Category : family, life outside work, Motherhood and parenting

Tags: babies, Jeremy

Yesterday, on my way home from work, the mother of one of my Ates (I call my yayas “Ate”) informed me through a text message that her father is in Manila and will leave for Samar (where they live) this Saturday. The sad part is, he wants to fetch his daughter and bring her home as well.

This naturally stunned me. It was very abrupt and this Ate is the one taking care of my little hyperactive boy, Jeremy. I asked her why it was all so sudden, like we were not even informed she was leaving so suddenly. I told her I would have understood if she were at least mistreated at home. For the life of me, I really could not see any indication she wanted to leave. I was even thinking I was not a bad employer because Bong and I always let our Ates eat ahead of us, I even tell them to eat well, this particular Ate especially because she is taking care of a very active boy and she has to be able to match his energy. I even cook at home now because I want them to have something to eat when Bong and I are not around. I always give in to their requests, especially those that have to do with money. And upon arriving from work, even when I have not had rest yet, I take Jeremy with me so I could relieve her because I know how tiring it is to take care of my little boy. Sobra akong manuyo, actually.

So imagine my astonishment when I was suddenly informed that she is leaving. Yesterday was a Thursday, so that gave me two days of notice. At home, I talked to her and asked her if she knew her father was coming to fetch her. She said she did not know and that she was going to leave only if we have already found somebody to replace her. I told her that was not what her mother told me.

This morning, Bong and I talked to her and it seems she has already really made up her mind that she is leaving. I told her it was like her family forgot to give us time to breathe and just wrung our necks because of their decision. I told her it truly pained me to let her go because I have already learned to like and even love the two of them (my Ates) because we could see they both love our babies and they are taking care of them so well. Even my daughter Ate Kara talked to me last night and asked me not to let go of this particular Ate. But I told the Ate that I also know she loves her family more than she loves Jeremy so I understand why she wants to go home now. And if tomorrow she still decides to go home with her father, I would understand.

On the way to the office this morning, I could not sleep on Bong’s shoulder even when I had about 4 to 5 hours of sleep only due to Cassie’s fussing at 2:00 in the morning. I was still very much bothered not just because we need to find a replacement Ate soon, but because it really pains me to let her go.

Now as I am writing this, I feel as if I have just broken up with someone. When you have learned to care for somebody and that somebody decides to leave you, you are left with a feeling of great loss. I am wishing the next Ate would be able to take care of my little Jeremy and love him as much as this Ate does. Nowadays, it is hard to look for someone you can trust your life and your children’s lives with. But then, last night and this morning, I already lifted up to Him my problems and woes and told Him we can’t do this alone. I know the next Ate He sends will be just as nice and caring because she will come from Him. Your will be done, Lord.

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